farm vases :)

i feel like bitching. however, i feel that if i bitch here it would somehow go back to the person i was going to bitch about. so to avoid all drama possible i will urm..tell...urm..suraj! great idea.

i guess it's true what someone said. i'm a real toughie aka i have a heart of stone. the only emotion i express well is anger. well, i can't deny it. to be all "open" and sensitive towards people is not something i'm very good at. i just feel awkward and wanting the moment to pass. i have no idea if it's something psychological or that's just me.

i do sometimes wish i was sensitive. i still remember how weird and out of place i felt when i went to school to collect my spm results. it seemed like everyone around me was crying and some were estatic while i was well, unfazed. i just really didn't care. it was even weirder to comfort my friend who was crying because she got an A2. like what??? it wasn't like she was poor and if she didn't get all A1's she could never further her studies.

oh man. there i go again.

haha i can imagine my future. me lying on the chair in a psychiatrist office.